48 and pregnant “naturally”!  The chances of that are less than 1%. Follow me as I discover a whole new world of pregnancy, motherhood and babies!

Ian is producing today so Miles and I visited him on set. Miles was going to be an extra but it started to be to close to his nap time but before we left he was seducing all the ladies on the set!

Hanging with the wardrobe ladies.

Miles and the stunt men all in black!

What a whirl wind it has been! I flew with Miles to France by myself and thankfully, it went pretty well! It just so happened that I was sitting next to a pediatrician on the way over and he was incredibly helpful!  Miles slept most of the way and he didn’t have any problem with his ears. Swiss Air was a bit of a nightmare! We had delays on both of the planes, the flight attendants were rude and they damaged my stroller so I wasn’t really happy with that airline. I couldn’t wait to jump into Ian’s arms when we arrived! Ian had a taxi waiting to shuttle us off to the condo where a glass of rose wine was waiting for me! Aaah….. welcome to France!

Sorry to be MIA but I have been organizing the last details for our wedding in the South of France. Ian left for Cannes on my 50th birthday and Mother’s Day so I figured I would celebrate the big 50 next year and remain 49 for another year! Miles has been wonderful, he is gradually walking. He crawls faster than a bullet and is absolutely adorable when he is being chased, he giggles all the way to his destination.

All the wedding details are almost complete so now all I have to do is pack and write my VOWS! Yep, we both have waited till the last minute. Gotta start!

We have several book shelves with an array of different interests (Art, history, classics, Buddhist books, spiritual books, Harry Potter etc) all over the house and Miles just loves gazing at them all. He particular likes the bookshelf behind my desk and invariable he will pull out the same books. I will move and add different books but he always picks the same books! This one is his favorite! How very interesting that he picks Thich Nhat Hanh, a Vietnamese zen master! How apropos because he is a quarter Vietnamese!!

Miles has been taking a few steps here and there for weeks now but he just hasn’t wanted to go the full distance. He has to do everything in his own time not ours! Ha!  He does sound like my child. Today he took 5 steps and I think he has finally decided that he wants to be a toddler. Once again, my life will be forever changed!

I have been organizing the wedding for months now and I am almost done. YAY! Wow, I had know idea how much organizing it takes to produce a wedding especially in Europe. I feel like I have had a part time producing job! We are having an intimate, themed wedding (Great Gatsby) in the south of France, honeymoon in Paris. Yes, I am pinching myself. Friends are coming from the US and Europe.I am traveling with Miles by myself so that should be very interesting, especially since he will be walking by then! Thank goodness it’s a night flight!

More details to come!

Miles is now back to his fun loving self. He had three rough days with fever, lack of energy and bouts of grumpiness! Thank goodness that is over!!

Over the weekend, Ian’s parents took Miles and me to the zoo. They bought Miles a year membership so we will be visiting those caged animals quite often. He hasn’t really reacted to any one animal, he just observes them but I am sure that will change the more we go.

Yesterday Miles started feeling the full effects of the MMR shot. He is running a low grade fever, chills and is not interested in eating or playing. Yikes, it’s just horrible watching your child suffer any kind of pain. It’s night two and I am hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Yesterday, Miles had his twelve month Dr. visit. Ian and I having been discussing whether Miles should have the MMR shot or just skip it. We understand there is lots of controversy surrounding the MMR shot and autism, of course, this is a worry and a huge concern. I have done a lot of research and there is just no easy answer. We talked about the options with our Dr. and decided to go ahead and give him the MMR shot but forgo the other shots for the moment. We are traveling to France for our wedding and it just so happens that France has had a bit of an epidemic of measles. Wouldn’t you know. We would have waited to give him the MMR shot if we were staying in the US but the risk of going to a country where there is an outbreak swayed our decision. This decision has not been an easy one for me. I am prayering that he will be okay.

Miles 1st birthday. The party was a great success and we have the classic photo, (you know, the one everyone wants with the cake all over the face) to prove it!

It was a dinosaur theme because Miles loves the book How Do Dinosaurs Say Goodnight.

There were loads of presents but from my observation the best present for Miles was two older girls fawning all over him. Monaco and Olivia wanted to hold Miles throughout the party. They thought he was a little doll to play with. He loved it.. He was gazing with love for Monaco. It’s starting already!

Miles will be one at 2:30 this afternoon. He is considered a toddler now, to me, he is still my little baby. I am sad but so so happy to have this gift in my life. We sang him happy birthday and he seemed to know that it was a special day. I love you Miles!

Miles took his first step! He has been standing up unassisted for about  month now but has refused to have any help walking. He is a stubborn munchkin! He wants to do things on his own time and not before. He is my little Aries… Well done my son!

Look, I am standing and reading!

Miles has discovered grass and he loves it! Everyday there are new tastes, smells and adventures that he is discovering. Now I “really” understand that meaning “the eyes through a child”. He is standing all the time but has yet to actually take a step on his own but he is very close. He will be walking before we get married in May. All I can think about is that long plane ride to France! ARG>>>>..

Miles usually wakes up around 6 or 7 but today he had a loungy morning. He woke up at 6:30 nursed, leaned over and gave me TWO KISSES and went back to sleep. My heart just melted! He has never done that before. I am constantly kissing him and he returned the gesture. I am so in love!

Miles is fascinated with books. He loves turning the pages back and forth, back and forth. If one thing is amiss he will hone in on that object. Today he was quietly looking at the books and found a little rip on a book cover. I have know idea where he gets that from or if it’s just a baby thing but it always gives me a little tickle to see him discovering the most mundane things.

Miles already has a fascination with cars. It certainly starts early! Our dear friend gave us this Fisher Price ride on Fire truck. He had been pushing it back and forth for sometime. Finally he has started feeling confident to ride on it. Watch out! 

In one month Miles will be a year old. He will be called a toddler, no longer a baby. It’s kind of sad.. Where does the time go?? Now I totally understand when people say, having kids shows the passage of time greater than anything else! It’s the great marker for everything now in our lives.

Thanks to Governor Jerry Brown, California is stepping up and banning those horrible fire retardants that are in couches, car seats, changing table pads and other baby products. Now we just have to convince him to take them out of PJ for babies!

Miles and I visited my girlfriend Elana over the weekend. When we were there he was trying to climb over Elana’s legs and fell, he split his little lip. He cried for a little bit then was off discovering all the new things he could touch or put in his mouth! Later in the day he lost his balance and fell again. Poor little munchkin was having a day.. Just look at the pictures, it looks like he had a real big bender!

Miles is starting to figure out how to throw a ball, to roll toy cars (not throw them), to climb  up and down a step. He has also become very stubborn especially when he is eating! I wonder who he got that from! HA..

Miles now has 4 teeth and eats everything…well almost… sometimes there is a little fight He is a stubborn little munchkin and at times it is the battle of the wills. What he doesn’t know is his mother if very stubborn too and I will win! HA… Let’s hope!

Ian and I have decided to get married in the South of France. He needs to be in Cannes to screen a film he produced so we thought why not get married there! So for the past weeks I have been scrambling to pull off a wedding in 3 months across the pond! Yikes!!! We have found this lovely villa in Saint Paul de Vence that we are hoping to rent called: La Sonine. Juliet, the owner, has been wonderful with advice and ideas for the wedding. We are having our reception at  the famous La Colombe d’or. It’s all very exciting and a bit surreal. To think 3 + years ago I was single and now I have a baby and “soon to be” husband at (almost) 50! Ha… What a fun fun life! More details to come…. 

Yesterday our dear friend Lisa invited us to the LA zoo with her daughter Livi, who is 3 months older than Miles. This was the first time Miles has seen big and wild animals. His mouth was constantly agape. He also had his first ride on a carousal!

Miles met his Godmother, Auntie Lala this past weekend. Laura came down from San Francisco to meet him. He told me he thought she was pretty.. I agreed!

Miles has a wonderful new nanny. My girlfriend Wendy, highly recommended Vicky, a young mother of 3. Miles just loves her! One of the requirements was that our nanny speaks Spanish to Miles, cooks, cleans and is a pleasant person. We hit the jackpot!

We have one room completely baby proofed and when I am cooking for him I will let him play there with all of his toys. He is usually singing or babbling so I feel pretty good that he is not hurting himself when I can hear him, it’s when he is quiet I start to worry. Well, I went to get him for his lunch and this is what a saw!

Miles loves our naughty cat. Izzy is a loving, beautiful little beast but she can bite and scratch which is exactly what she did to Miles. I always watch her but I put Miles and Izzy in the room together alone for a minute and Miles crawled away with a bloody scratch on his face. He didn’t even cry! I couldn’t discipline her because I didn’t see her in the act of it but later in the day I put them together again and she lounged at him. I smacked her nose and put her in the garage.. BAD CAT! He still loves her!!!

One of Miles Godfather’s (lucky boy, he has two) visited last week and he gave Miles a Laser Stars Indoor Light Show
which projects thousands of stars with cloud formations. Miles would look up at the stars and then he would get off balance and fall. He finally figured out he needed to hold on to something to gaze at the stars, then he started howling at them. Crazy cute!

Miles is roaming all over the place at a very fast speed! If you turn your head for a second you will only see a little bottom crawling away from you! This is such a fun stage right now. He giggles all the time, he is curious about everything he sees and he is incredibly loving. He gives big mommy hugs which of course, I love!

Yesterday was Cecilia’s last day, she is going to be working for another family. We only need her to take care of Miles for a couple of days a week and she needs more of a full time gig. We are sad to see her go because she is so wonderful with our little munchkin. Thanks CC we will miss you!

40 weeks old and our little one has a touch of separation anxiety. He has been a very social baby but one day he woke up and just wanted Mama. I had read that babies will have a fear of strangers when they hit 9 months but I thought he would skate past that because he was so open to people but it turns out that Miles is a text book baby. He’s not particularly fearful of strangers he just wants me all the time, which is very sweet but it doesn’t give me very much time to go to the bathroom!  :)

Miles is growing up so fast, I want it to slow down!!! He is entering his 9th month on this planet. He is crawling all over the house, standing, rambling, singing, eating solid foods, sleeping 12 hours ( I know, we are really lucky) and is simply adorable. We are so blessed that he is such a good and healthy baby.

Mama is pretty rested, skinny (not really toned yet) and so happy. I keep pinching myself, is this my life now. It is!

Papa is working on 3 films (when it rains it pours) and loves his son more and more each day.

Now to plan the wedding!

While visiting my parents in the blue ridge mountains of Georgia, Miles met a lot of his cousins. Miles feel in love with Aasia, my brother’s daughter. As fate has it, they are both Italian and Vietnamese! Go figure!! She was wonderful with him. I am pretty sure when he is older he will have a huge crush on her because he already has one now! HA!!!

What a year it has been. I was blessed with a beautiful little angel and a wonderful man. I am looking forward to 2013 and all the new adventures that are sure to come.

When I was single I wondered why my girlfriends with kids didn’t have that much time. I knew they were busy with their kids but how much time did it really take… HA!!!!  I had KNOW IDEA how busy you are when you have kids! Silly me!!! It is a full time job and then some. I love being a Mom and I love my son. I want to apoligize to my yummy mommy friends…. I totally understand NOW!